Ask God How He Feels About You

I never imagined that just the prospect of the transition into empty nesting would hit me so hard! From the time I was a young girl playing house with my sisters, the only thing I ever wanted to do was to be a mother. I loved school and I have enjoyed eacg job I have had, but the dream of my heart was motherhood. And though it has been the hardest thing I’ve ever done, caused me the most anxiety, and had me in tears many times, I’ve never been disappointed in the thrill of it. I love being a mom! I love nurturing, teaching and connecting with my children. I love creating memories and traditions with them. I love learning from them and realizing that they truly push me to be a better me. So it was crushing when a few years ago I suddenly realized that I only had a handful of years left of this being my full time, all encompassing, day consuming job. I felt like I abruptly hit a brick wall. What was I going to do with my life? Did I have another purpose? Something that would give me as much joy and fulfillment? Or at least a portion of that?

This realization came amidst some other really hard hitting trials and in the blink of an eye I felt like I was drowning. I know that most of my feelings of worthlessness and self doubt came from the other things happening in my life, but this sudden realization did not help. In fact, it just compounded all the other feelings I was having. I have always been a cheerful person, an optimist by nature. But this time in my life was devastating. I felt hopeless and helpless. I spent most of my days crying and trying to figure out how I was ever going to be happy again. As I said, their were many contributing factors to these feelings at that time and this was just a part of it, but it was the first time in my life I sincerely wanted to know who I really was and what my life’s purpose was. It was the first time that I realized that my children would not be my purpose forever and that there must be something more.

And then something beautiful happened. I started to feel prompted about what to pray about. And one of those things was, “Ask God how He feels about you.” Oh man! When you are feeling lower than dirt and can’t see anything good in yourself the last thing you want to do is ask God who sees all and knows all and is purity itself how He feels about you. But to my credit, I was obedient. I cannot put into words the sacred answers that came in that powerful communion with my Maker. I can only tell you that I cried harder than ever when the feelings of pure love came into my heart. I can tell you that He does know us perfectly and likewise He loves us perfectly. He knows the worst about us and loves us anyway. He cheers for us in our successes and He aches with us in our failures. He is for us and NEVER against us.

From that point on I was led to people, articles, and activities that strengthened my understanding of my diving identity. I was prompted to write a list of my good qualities. That was so hard! But again I obeyed and I know I did not make that list myself. Now one of my greatest treasures is a tangible list made by me and my loving Heavenly Father of my redeeming qualities. I was also led to create a list of my weaknesses. And in that list I found help in acknowledging them and the source to which I could go for help in creating healthy boundaries for myself to overcome those weaknesses. Aside from the personal divine assignments I was given, I had conversations with people who did not know my struggles that validated the positive things I was starting to feel. I got random texts that affirmed the heavenly love I had felt. I was led to groups that had scriptures and conference talks that taught me more and led me into deeper understanding of who I really was and how God really feels about me. And then along this journey I started to get very concise promptings and answers to my bigger purpose and how I would fulfill that.

This journey is very personal and maybe people would question how I came to be so sure of the things I am absolutely positive about now, but that is fine with me. Every one of us is entitled to the same journey of finding their true identity and purpose. In fact, I believe we are each accountable to seek out these answers. I can’t tell you what yours will look like. I can tell you it will not be an easy journey. To be honest, the vulnerability required will feel like a high price to pay. At times you may wonder if it is worth it. I promise it is! As you seek your divine identity and purpose with sincerity and diligence, if you will keep your mind and heart open and create a space for God to communicate with you, He will lead you to find your answers little by little. It will change your heart and it will change your life! As I said, I can’t tell you what your journey will look like or the specific answers you will find, but I can tell you how to start… Ask God how He feels about you.

Our Divine Identity

Ponder these verses:

Jeremiah 1:

5 Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations.

1 Peter 2:

9 But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light:

1 Corinthians 6:

19 What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?
20 For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s

1 John 3:

1 Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that we should be called the sons of God: therefore the world knoweth us not, because it knew him not.
2 Beloved, now are we the sons of God, and it doth not yet appear what we shall be: but we know that, when he shall appear, we shall be like him; for we shall see him as he is.

Moses 1:

13 And it came to pass that Moses looked upon Satan and said: Who art thou? For behold, I am a son of God, in the similitude of his Only Begotten; and where is thy glory, that I should worship thee?

What do these scriptures teach you about your Divine identity and your own sanctified purpose in earth?

The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz

One of my favorite finds on self examination and improvement is the book
THE FOUR AGREEMENTS
by Don Miguel Ruiz

The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom https://g.co/kgs/UJ7Z1K

A friend of mine shared this self-help book with me a few years back. It was so fascinating to me! In the introduction he goes over how most people live with a judge and a victim in their heads constantly vying for attention and energy. The book focuses on learning how to take control of your life and choose happiness through committing to four new commitments:
1. choosing carefully the words we use
2. choosing not to be offended
3. choosing not to make assumptions
4.choosing to always do your best

He talks about how so many people live their lives in a type of hell allowing others to control so much of their happiness.

After reading this book and his specific examples of how we might not follow these agreements, my eyes were opened to ways I could find more peace and happiness in my life. I find the taglines of the agreements popping into my mind when I start to stress about things, as if God is prompting me on how to resolve the worry.

I have shared the concepts from this book on so many occasions (and the book itself) and know many of my friends and family have found them helpful in their own lives.

I think everyone should read this book! We all deserve to be happy and have peace!!

Fail to Plan, Plan to Fail

I have learned through personal experience how vitally important it is to regularly assess myself. The times I have found myself most off course in life were the times I had neglected charting a course and checking my bearings.

It is so easy to get caught up in the rolling waves of life and not even notice how far we have drifted until one day we look up and realize we are in a place we never planned on being and that the waves have gotten violently destructive. It is so much easier to take a little time each day to connect with God and a little time each week to assess our connection to Him and how we are doing on self improvement goals.

If we make a point to regularly examine ourselves we can make great strides in overcoming our weaknesses and towards becoming our highest and best selves.

One of the ways I have found to regularly evaluate myself is to set some time aside in January to determine an action word I can use to focus on during the year to help me grow closer to the Lord. This year I have chosen PRAYERFUL.

I challenge you to pick a word and I’d love to know the word you choose. Happy 2019!